I believe people come into our lives on purpose. They cross our paths with purpose. Each brings something for us ~ some lesson or opportunity to crack open something new within us.
Our six month Soul Sisters Journey comes to an end this month. We meet one last time during the warmth of June to acknowledge the journey we’ve traveled together and the rich gifts we’ve received because of our collective contribution.
We all have experiences in our lives that dramatically shift our path and enrich our Life as we understand it. There are those people who touch us in a way that change us forever and events that wake us up to a new connection with ourselves.
This week I celebrated my 28th year of Life without alcohol or drugs. Sobriety has been my second chance to choose to live daily ~ present, responsible, and free.
An invitation also arrived this week to celebrate Louise Hay’s 90th birthday October 8th, in San Diego. This is one Life Celebration I won’t miss. Being introduced to her courage, light and love in the early 80’s forever changed me and my Life.
Life is meant to to be enjoyed and the real gifts come to us every day without asking. To be able to just receive and enjoy the experience is truly the intention of the giver, Mother Earth.
The month of May is considered to be the last month of spring. It carries the expression of possibility. For me, May is the month when I acknowledge the biggest anniversaries of my Life.
“SIMPLE DISCIPLINES REPEATED OVER TIME WILL CREATE SUCCESS, WHILE, SIMPLE MISTAKES REPEATED OVER TIME WILL CREATE FAILURE.”
Recently, I started a cleanse to help me realign with my mindful eating. It took me six months to become willing to be present and honest with myself. I know what supports my body and I know that sugar and caffeine are just empty place holders.
Why then do I allow myself to get so far off course?
Losing my positive focus and direction doesn’t happen over night. I get there as an incremental manifestation of my choices over time. It is the The Slight Edge.
When I fall out of my routine, I have a tendency to feel overwhelmed and disconnected. I beat myself up for feeling this way and judge myself for not Being centered. This may sound silly yet those negative critical messages have the power to weave up to choke my daily well being. They eventually demand my undivided attention.
If I am feeling especially vulnerable and stressed out I give in to my need to escape or hide. What I am really running from is my feeling of fear and my need to be certain.
This is an old pattern of mine. I look outside myself for the perfect solution to make me feel better and to “help me cope”. It’s my need for emotional comfort that directs my desperate choice to seek a quick fix.
Before May 19,1988 I filled my emotional holes by obsessing with alcohol and cocaine. In early sobriety my sponsor once asked me if I wanted a bat to make my regular beatings easier for me. That question along with its’ image has served me many times over the years. It is such a visual cue.
As with any quick fix for a while the drugs appeared to provide immediate relief. Yet the quieting of my punishing thoughts was only temporary.
How do I get to where I can shift the tides of my focus and climb out of the ruts I’ve built for myself?
Well, it takes what it takes! When I am sick and tired of being sick and tired I am ready to make a change. I let go of looking outside of myself for answers. I become willing to believe that I deserve to feel better and be happy.
I make a decision to take responsibility for myself and the quality of my Life.
The first step to making any change is to become aware and accepting of “what is” in the present. I choose to let go of resisting and judging myself… just for now.
I remind myself that I am only human and it is our nature to make mistakes. That’s how we learn. I reframe the language I use and recognize the that negative messages I hear ~ are from the past.
When I let go of holding on to what I don’t want, I create a space within me that is open and receptive. In this present moment I am connected with my Highest Self and my inner wisdom.
And it is here… where I can hear ... my answers to what’s next?
What are you ready to change so you can be free of needing to flog yourself?
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